Were we ready?
Could we give him enough?
Could we be all that he
needed?
Would WE be enough?
When he was born we worried
as all parents do
Has he eaten enough?
Is he warm enough?
Can he feel how much we love
him?
Have we cuddled him too much
or not enough?
When we sent him off to
school we asked ourselves
Was he ready?
Would he miss us or be
scared?
Would he make friends?
Had we taught him enough?
Then when he was older we
asked
Was his childhood enough?
Did we make it enough?
Did we love him enough?
Did we teach him enough?
When times were busy and our
house was full did we hug him enough?
Did he know how much we loved him? How much we love him still?
When he joined the Army, we
were very proud and we worried still
Would he cope with all the
discipline?
Would the training be too
hard?
Would we miss each other too
much?
The phone calls came
sometimes but were never enough.
Many years later the day
finally came...the day he went to Afghanistan.
We had lunch together and we
all tried not to cry. All the time we were overwhelmed.
We were beyond proud of our
brave son who was the only one who appeared to be ok. As he hugged us
goodbye no words were needed, they were all in our eyes
It was then that all our
questions were answered.
Yes he knew how much we
loved him,
Yes we had been enough
Thank God the discipline had
been enough
Thank God the training had
been hard
He was ready and it had all
been enough
His children didn't
understand. They thought that Daddy was going to work in a
plane. They were used to this but his little boy was still sad
every time he went away. This is him on that day, wearing his Daddy's
hat.
Thankfully, we were spared
and our James came home to us, others weren't so lucky. So now when
we hear on the news that some brave army soldier has lost his
life...it isn't just a story. Tears spring to our eyes because we
truly feel that family's pain. Those soldiers no matter who they are
or what country they come from, are somebody's father, husband,
brother or son.
Our son has left the army
now so that he can spend time with his own young family. He has
served his country well...but for the moment he's needed by his own
family. Enough is enough.
I didn't know about Anzac Day, so thank you for sharing this with me. My heart was in my mouth as I read the beginning of your post because I didn't know what to expect. I am glad that it is a poem of love and honoring, not a poem of child-loss. Although, in a way, it *is* about child-loss, just not in that way.
ReplyDeleteGlad that your son is safe.
Thanks Ana. I don’t know how people cope with child loss. No matter how old they are. We are blessed :)
DeleteAs the daughter of a US Army officer, I found your poem very touching. I haven't always agreed with the decisions of the upper-echelon politicians from America and its allies regarding where troops should be sent, most particularly Iraq. But the soldiers and other military personnell should be honored for their service, both those who put their lives at risk in combat situations and those like my Dad whose military service was in a support position.
ReplyDeleteHappy Anzac Day and God Bless Australia!
DeleteThanks Claire. I appreciate your comments :)
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